Pain..

Pain is just one of the things that I feel right now, I do not know these other feelings they confuse me more and more. It feels like something is missing in me, I do not know what it feels just so.

Feel betrayed and do not think I can more ... It's 2 years ago, but I think about it more than ever, thinking about you more than ever ...

You left me alone, after 7 months together, after all, we had been through. You left me and did so I almost died ... Or yes, I died, but I have tried to build me up again with the help from everyone and everything, but again, you have succeeded without even seeing or talking to me to crush me again ... Have nothing left to live for ....

You have done this, hope you live well ....

Im afraid...

Has my life meaning at all? Or is it my brain who wants me to believe it. I really dont know, I am confused and scared at the same time. I am afraid that I will be the old me, I am afraid of many things. It is a long time since I was afraid to lose people. I hate and love to have it like this, I hate it for it makes me feel bad and I love it because I know that I care about some people in this world ... But the question is whether I mean the same for other people? this is what scares me the most ...